Saturday, December 19, 2009
Prepping for Round 3
So, I'm looking forward to round 3. I am going to load on New Year's Eve and be finished by my birthday--January 20th. How perfect. I really need to re-read the protocol and freshen up on some of the details again. I am so close to getting a treadmill too and Chad got me new runnng shoes for our anniversary. So I am ready to be fabulous in 2010!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Blessed Steak and Apple Day
Morning Weight: 152.0
Morning Mood: Triumphant
This plan really works. I have had to fight a little harder this time around (read: I have not been as careful, so my weight fluctuates more.), but the plan works. If I am up and choose to take care of it, I can have a steak and apple day (fast all day until dinner time and then eat only a steak and an apple or tomato) and like clockwork, I am back down the next morning. It's really not that hard. In fact, I actually lost 3 pounds yesterday. Today will be about continued restraint and self-control to maximize this loss. By the way, the secret to steak and apple days for me is a big diet dr. pepper and lots of Crystal ice with lime. :)
OOH--another update. I saw my doctor last night and he complimented me and told me I looked great and he said, "So what have you been doing? Lots of exercise and diet?" and I just said, "You, know kind of starving." See, he specifically told me not to do HCG. Rather he wanted me to go all natural and eat nothing white and nothing with a label. In reality, HCG is exactly that with the help of one hormone. And my maintenance plan sticks pretty close to those recommendations. It was good to have him (and a few others) notice my progress. I think I'm going to go hula hoop and jump rope now. You know, get that exercise part in. :)
Morning Mood: Triumphant
This plan really works. I have had to fight a little harder this time around (read: I have not been as careful, so my weight fluctuates more.), but the plan works. If I am up and choose to take care of it, I can have a steak and apple day (fast all day until dinner time and then eat only a steak and an apple or tomato) and like clockwork, I am back down the next morning. It's really not that hard. In fact, I actually lost 3 pounds yesterday. Today will be about continued restraint and self-control to maximize this loss. By the way, the secret to steak and apple days for me is a big diet dr. pepper and lots of Crystal ice with lime. :)
OOH--another update. I saw my doctor last night and he complimented me and told me I looked great and he said, "So what have you been doing? Lots of exercise and diet?" and I just said, "You, know kind of starving." See, he specifically told me not to do HCG. Rather he wanted me to go all natural and eat nothing white and nothing with a label. In reality, HCG is exactly that with the help of one hormone. And my maintenance plan sticks pretty close to those recommendations. It was good to have him (and a few others) notice my progress. I think I'm going to go hula hoop and jump rope now. You know, get that exercise part in. :)
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
The Best Things About Being Thinner
1. Going through my mom's closet and having a whole new wardrobe!
2. My dimples come back. The thinner my face, the bigger my dimples.
3. Feeling comfortable in cute clothes (not dying to get home and in my sweats.)
4. BUCKLE JEANS.... can't wait for Christmas.
5. Feeling my butt bones when I sit on a hard chair. A little reminder that I've worked my butt off.
Just to name a few. :) Sweet satisfaction. (I'm thinking another round might do me good in January...)
2. My dimples come back. The thinner my face, the bigger my dimples.
3. Feeling comfortable in cute clothes (not dying to get home and in my sweats.)
4. BUCKLE JEANS.... can't wait for Christmas.
5. Feeling my butt bones when I sit on a hard chair. A little reminder that I've worked my butt off.
Just to name a few. :) Sweet satisfaction. (I'm thinking another round might do me good in January...)
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Day... Well, Who's Counting?
I need to post some before and after pics for the finale. Chad and I decided to stop the diet on Day 18. My final weight: 152.4. I do regret quitting early, on one hand. On the other hand, I'm having a hard time stabilizing. For example, I'm sure tomorrow will be a steak and apple day. I don't know if my body is resisting being down this low after so many years or if I messed up entirely by not completing my full round. Really, I don't want to know the answer to that.
Anyway, next time I put on something cute, I will take a final pic to reflect a total loss of 33.4 pounds!
Anyway, next time I put on something cute, I will take a final pic to reflect a total loss of 33.4 pounds!
Monday, October 19, 2009
Day 17: The flesh is weak!
Morning Weight: 152.6
Morning Mood: All hope is lost
I'm really wondering if my body says it's done with all this. Check it out:
186 big fat pounds.
164.6
152.6
Morning Mood: All hope is lost
I'm really wondering if my body says it's done with all this. Check it out:
186 big fat pounds.
164.6
152.6I think there is a little difference between the last 2 pictures, but Holy cow, is there a difference between the first and the last!
Friday, October 16, 2009
Day 16: I don't even know what to title this...
Morning Weight: 152.6
Morning Mood: Hard to explain
So I lost .2 pounds. Went to the bathroom (again). Got on the scale again. Still 152.6. oh. my. gosh. it's sucking the life right out of me. total loss in round 2: 6.2. total loss on hcg: 33.4. Chad's total loss is around 18 pounds. see you tomorrow. i hope to bring bigger numbers to the table.
As a side note, I am looking hotter... :)
Morning Mood: Hard to explain
So I lost .2 pounds. Went to the bathroom (again). Got on the scale again. Still 152.6. oh. my. gosh. it's sucking the life right out of me. total loss in round 2: 6.2. total loss on hcg: 33.4. Chad's total loss is around 18 pounds. see you tomorrow. i hope to bring bigger numbers to the table.
As a side note, I am looking hotter... :)
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Day 15: Clawing my way through...
Morning Weight: 152.8
Morning Mood: Despondent
I am suffering through this at this point. I am scraping by for tiny losses. I can't wait to be done. Oh how beautiful a number in the 140's will look. I hope I live to see the day. And if I die, they are going to embalm me and I'll look all puffed up and heavier and then what? No one will even know I met my goal. Very sad.
Morning Mood: Despondent
I am suffering through this at this point. I am scraping by for tiny losses. I can't wait to be done. Oh how beautiful a number in the 140's will look. I hope I live to see the day. And if I die, they are going to embalm me and I'll look all puffed up and heavier and then what? No one will even know I met my goal. Very sad.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Day 14: Bones
Morning Weight: 153.2
Morning Mood: Still motivated
So, last night we took the kids and went to the church for a fall carnival...You know, the kind with candy and doughnuts and scones and hot chocolate? It was really hard for Chad and harder for me than it would have been last time around. But, no pain, no gain (or loss in this case). We stood strong. We came home and ate some chicken. Ooh, and strawberries for the first time. They tasted really good.
The good news is-- I can feel more bones. This is not to be confused with seeing more bones. I can't really see any bones, except my collar bone, which I think is sexy. Anyway, when I'm laying down, I can feel my ribs and my tummy sinking in instead of spilling over. When I sit at the kitchen table, I can immediately feel my butt bones against the chairs. When I lay on my side, my hip bones are revealed. I have to take the time to notice all the small things because they make this all worth it. And one of the best things? The thinner I get, the more my dimples show.
Morning Mood: Still motivated
So, last night we took the kids and went to the church for a fall carnival...You know, the kind with candy and doughnuts and scones and hot chocolate? It was really hard for Chad and harder for me than it would have been last time around. But, no pain, no gain (or loss in this case). We stood strong. We came home and ate some chicken. Ooh, and strawberries for the first time. They tasted really good.
The good news is-- I can feel more bones. This is not to be confused with seeing more bones. I can't really see any bones, except my collar bone, which I think is sexy. Anyway, when I'm laying down, I can feel my ribs and my tummy sinking in instead of spilling over. When I sit at the kitchen table, I can immediately feel my butt bones against the chairs. When I lay on my side, my hip bones are revealed. I have to take the time to notice all the small things because they make this all worth it. And one of the best things? The thinner I get, the more my dimples show.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Day 13: Kind of a let down
Morning Weight: 153.8
Morning Mood: Sort of bummed
I was sort of bummed that I didn't get another 1 pound loss, but I am truly coming down slowly but surely. Here are some pics from today with a total loss of 32.2 pounds. I am really wondering if my goal weight of 148 will get rid of the rest of my belly. It's only another 5.8 pounds.
As a side note, I have officially forgone the melba toast. Why you ask? Take a look at this pic--it just really isn't that satisfying. On the other hand, that piece of bread really scares me now too...
Morning Mood: Sort of bummed
I was sort of bummed that I didn't get another 1 pound loss, but I am truly coming down slowly but surely. Here are some pics from today with a total loss of 32.2 pounds. I am really wondering if my goal weight of 148 will get rid of the rest of my belly. It's only another 5.8 pounds.
As a side note, I have officially forgone the melba toast. Why you ask? Take a look at this pic--it just really isn't that satisfying. On the other hand, that piece of bread really scares me now too...
Day 12: This is so long
Morning Weight: 154
Morning Mood: positive.
I am really happy to be on the down side of the 150's. It is very exciting, but I have to tell you, I can't believe I did this for 40 days last time! That is just unreal. It seems so long this time and it's harder to stay focused. I really miss my food. I really want something that actually tastes good. You know what I really want? I want bleu cheese sprinkled over my cucumbers in balsamic vinegar. I want peanut butter on my apples and I want oatmeal with berries and a little bit of brown sugar. I want to cook a big meal for chad and I want to make bread. BUT, I will get through all of this and come out at goal. And that will feel great.
Morning Mood: positive.
I am really happy to be on the down side of the 150's. It is very exciting, but I have to tell you, I can't believe I did this for 40 days last time! That is just unreal. It seems so long this time and it's harder to stay focused. I really miss my food. I really want something that actually tastes good. You know what I really want? I want bleu cheese sprinkled over my cucumbers in balsamic vinegar. I want peanut butter on my apples and I want oatmeal with berries and a little bit of brown sugar. I want to cook a big meal for chad and I want to make bread. BUT, I will get through all of this and come out at goal. And that will feel great.
Monday, October 12, 2009
Day 11: This is good...
Morning Weight: 155
Morning Mood: Satisfied
Okay, this will keep me on track for my goal. And I got to wear a dress to church today that I haven't worn in a long time. Good stuff.
Morning Mood: Satisfied
Okay, this will keep me on track for my goal. And I got to wear a dress to church today that I haven't worn in a long time. Good stuff.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Day 10: Back on Track
Morning Weight: 155.8
Morning Mood: Eh.
For some reason I was really fighting some cravings yesterday. I read all these holiday cookbooks trying to tell myself I was just getting ready for the season and the parties I have coming up, but really I just wanted something yummy and naughty. The weather also plays a big factor--it's getting to be really cold outside and it makes me want to tuck in and cook. A couple of days ago I spent a couple of hours making 2 different kinds of homemade soup and freezing it. Not eating it. Last round, I ended up cooking a lot for birthdays and 4th of July and I would freeze myself a portion for after HCG and they are still in the freezer. This diet does something weird to your mindset. It doesn't change your habits, but in the days after the diet you realize that food isn't that big of a deal. It doesn't really taste as good as you thought and you weren't missing out as much as you thought. Also, it puts a food's worth into perspective. How good is it really? Do I really love it? If I really honestly love it, then it is totally worth it. If its artificial and mediocre, I'm going to skip it. Anyway, the last couple of days were challenging because my weight hasn't dropped the way I'd hoped, but I think I'm back on track. I lost the .6 I need to do everyday.
Morning Mood: Eh.
For some reason I was really fighting some cravings yesterday. I read all these holiday cookbooks trying to tell myself I was just getting ready for the season and the parties I have coming up, but really I just wanted something yummy and naughty. The weather also plays a big factor--it's getting to be really cold outside and it makes me want to tuck in and cook. A couple of days ago I spent a couple of hours making 2 different kinds of homemade soup and freezing it. Not eating it. Last round, I ended up cooking a lot for birthdays and 4th of July and I would freeze myself a portion for after HCG and they are still in the freezer. This diet does something weird to your mindset. It doesn't change your habits, but in the days after the diet you realize that food isn't that big of a deal. It doesn't really taste as good as you thought and you weren't missing out as much as you thought. Also, it puts a food's worth into perspective. How good is it really? Do I really love it? If I really honestly love it, then it is totally worth it. If its artificial and mediocre, I'm going to skip it. Anyway, the last couple of days were challenging because my weight hasn't dropped the way I'd hoped, but I think I'm back on track. I lost the .6 I need to do everyday.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Day 9: Finally
Morning Weight: 156.4
Morning Mood: Huge Relief
I had a friend bring me a case of fresh apples from a fruit stand in Nampa, ID and they were gorgeous, juicy, flavorful apples. And they were huge. That was problem number 1. I think problem number 2 was the Dove soap I was using. It says right on the label that it contains 1/4 lotion. Last round I didn't have to worry about my body wash, but I'm not taking the chance. So I switched to Ivory brand soap (squeaky clean) and I think my problems should be over. So at this point I'm down a total of 29.6 pounds from the beginning of round 1 (June 30). This round I am down 2.2 pounds with 14 days to go. I am hopeful that I will reach my goal of 148. That is another 8.4 pounds, which would require an average loss of .6 pounds a day. In my 40 day round I averaged exactly that much. So, as long as I don't lose anymore days, then I should reach my goal and weigh 148 on October 23. And I really hope that translates into a size 8.
Morning Mood: Huge Relief
I had a friend bring me a case of fresh apples from a fruit stand in Nampa, ID and they were gorgeous, juicy, flavorful apples. And they were huge. That was problem number 1. I think problem number 2 was the Dove soap I was using. It says right on the label that it contains 1/4 lotion. Last round I didn't have to worry about my body wash, but I'm not taking the chance. So I switched to Ivory brand soap (squeaky clean) and I think my problems should be over. So at this point I'm down a total of 29.6 pounds from the beginning of round 1 (June 30). This round I am down 2.2 pounds with 14 days to go. I am hopeful that I will reach my goal of 148. That is another 8.4 pounds, which would require an average loss of .6 pounds a day. In my 40 day round I averaged exactly that much. So, as long as I don't lose anymore days, then I should reach my goal and weigh 148 on October 23. And I really hope that translates into a size 8.
Day 8: Barely able to deal with it...
Morning Weight: 157.8
Morning Mood: If you think I was in a bad mood yesterday...
Well, I couldn't even get on to post about this. I think I got to the bottom of the problem and now I'm back on track.
Morning Mood: If you think I was in a bad mood yesterday...
Well, I couldn't even get on to post about this. I think I got to the bottom of the problem and now I'm back on track.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Day 7: I don't even want to talk about it.
Morning Weight: 157.6
Morning Mood: Um, I said a bad word on the scale.
For the record: I did not cheat. At all.
Morning Mood: Um, I said a bad word on the scale.
For the record: I did not cheat. At all.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Day 6: Keep it coming
Morning Weight: 157.4
Morning Mood: Bored, but positive.
I think I was really liking the maintenance phase of my life: I felt great and I could eat what I wanted and I felt in control. It has been a little harder to stay positive in this round and I didn't think it would be. But, I am excited at my losses and I can imagine that maintaining at 148 or so will feel fabulous. I keep asking my husband what he's going to do when people stop him to tell him his wife is so stinking hot... :)
Morning Mood: Bored, but positive.
I think I was really liking the maintenance phase of my life: I felt great and I could eat what I wanted and I felt in control. It has been a little harder to stay positive in this round and I didn't think it would be. But, I am excited at my losses and I can imagine that maintaining at 148 or so will feel fabulous. I keep asking my husband what he's going to do when people stop him to tell him his wife is so stinking hot... :)
Monday, October 5, 2009
Day 5: Plugging Along
Morning Weight: 158.4
Morning Mood: Satisfied
If I could just force myself to drink more water, I think I would feel more perky, but sometimes the water just makes me feel a little quesy on an empty stomach. But today I'm goign to try to get a few more bottles down.
Morning Mood: Satisfied
If I could just force myself to drink more water, I think I would feel more perky, but sometimes the water just makes me feel a little quesy on an empty stomach. But today I'm goign to try to get a few more bottles down.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Day 4: And the Countdown Begins!
Morning Weight: 160.0
Morning Mood: "Oh yeah! This part is awesome!"
So, even in round 1, I never lost more than 1.6! I'll be really happy to get losses like this more often. I'm contemplating the difference between the drops and the cream. I'm still feeling pretty hungry today so if that doesn't curb by tomorrow or the next day, then I'll have to do something different.
Correction: I went back and looked at my first weight after starting the VLCD and I did lose 2 pounds on the first day in round 1. Also, it wasn't until day 6 or 7 that I really started feeling good. So, I'm going to stay positive and get skinny. :)
Morning Mood: "Oh yeah! This part is awesome!"
So, even in round 1, I never lost more than 1.6! I'll be really happy to get losses like this more often. I'm contemplating the difference between the drops and the cream. I'm still feeling pretty hungry today so if that doesn't curb by tomorrow or the next day, then I'll have to do something different.
Correction: I went back and looked at my first weight after starting the VLCD and I did lose 2 pounds on the first day in round 1. Also, it wasn't until day 6 or 7 that I really started feeling good. So, I'm going to stay positive and get skinny. :)
Day 3: At least no more gaining...
Morning Weight: 162.0
Morning Mood: Relieved
After finally seeing the 150's, I did not want to creep up any more from loading!
Morning Mood: Relieved
After finally seeing the 150's, I did not want to creep up any more from loading!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Day 2: Dragging
Morning Weight: 162.0
Morning Mood: Normal
It was sad to see the 150's go, but I'm sure I'll be back there in a few days. This loading thing is such a let down. I think I'm going to be so excited to eat, but my body truly does not feel well running on crap. So, I'm excited to get on track tomorrow. We are going out to eat tonight and we'll pig out and then it's nose to the grindstone! I'll be checking in.
Morning Mood: Normal
It was sad to see the 150's go, but I'm sure I'll be back there in a few days. This loading thing is such a let down. I think I'm going to be so excited to eat, but my body truly does not feel well running on crap. So, I'm excited to get on track tomorrow. We are going out to eat tonight and we'll pig out and then it's nose to the grindstone! I'll be checking in.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Day 1: Here We Go!
Starting Weight: 158.8
Starting Mood: Super-excited to see the end result!
Hanging with the Family before HCG (please control your gag reflex):
Hanging with the Family after Round 1:
What will round 2 hold?!! So excited to see my new smokin' self.
Starting Mood: Super-excited to see the end result!
Hanging with the Family before HCG (please control your gag reflex):
Hanging with the Family after Round 1:
What will round 2 hold?!! So excited to see my new smokin' self.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Preparing to Start Over!
I'm getting ready to start over and lose the rest of my weight! My husband's doing it with me and lots of family and friends! It's contagious! I'll be posting me progress soon!
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Day 38: *sigh*
Morning Weight: 163.4
Morning Mood: Less than enthusiastic.
Well, I did eat my cucumber and apple right before going to bed last night. The day before I also had raspberries instead of strawberries, but I still lost. One of those two things may have contributed to this. Whatever.
Morning Mood: Less than enthusiastic.
Well, I did eat my cucumber and apple right before going to bed last night. The day before I also had raspberries instead of strawberries, but I still lost. One of those two things may have contributed to this. Whatever.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Day 37: 23 pounds down and 2 1/2 days to go!
Morning Weight: 163
Morning Mood: Hopeful
Okay, I have mixed emotions. I'm hopeful that I'll reach my 25 pound goal. I'm excited about it, but I'm nervous to start eating again. I want to taste food, but I am not excited to gain even one pound. I will stabilize this weight loss for like 6 weeks and then try to lose the last 10 pounds. I don't know if I'll do it with HCG or not. We'll just see how I feel.
Morning Mood: Hopeful
Okay, I have mixed emotions. I'm hopeful that I'll reach my 25 pound goal. I'm excited about it, but I'm nervous to start eating again. I want to taste food, but I am not excited to gain even one pound. I will stabilize this weight loss for like 6 weeks and then try to lose the last 10 pounds. I don't know if I'll do it with HCG or not. We'll just see how I feel.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Day 34: I love getting dressed for church
Morning Weight: 164.6
Morning Mood: Satisfied
Down .8 pounds today. I love sunday mornings when I can get dressed up. I feel so good each sunday as my options in the closet just open up. People are really starting to notice the weight loss. I wore a dress to church today that I bought probably 18 months ago (while I was pregnant) and I've been trying to get in it ever since. And finally today was the day. I didn't take a pic, but I do have some pics of our hike yesterday and though they are not as flattering, they do show some progress. Total pounds lost: 21.4
Remember this?
Now there's this:
Morning Mood: Satisfied
Down .8 pounds today. I love sunday mornings when I can get dressed up. I feel so good each sunday as my options in the closet just open up. People are really starting to notice the weight loss. I wore a dress to church today that I bought probably 18 months ago (while I was pregnant) and I've been trying to get in it ever since. And finally today was the day. I didn't take a pic, but I do have some pics of our hike yesterday and though they are not as flattering, they do show some progress. Total pounds lost: 21.4
Remember this?
Now there's this:
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Day 33: Can I get a little more please?
Morning Weight: 165.4
Morning Mood: Hmph!
I'm pretty much getting tired of this and I could really use a boost here!
Morning Mood: Hmph!
I'm pretty much getting tired of this and I could really use a boost here!
Day 32: Whatever.
Morning Weight: 165.6
Morning Mood: Whatever.
Stay the course. slow and steady. blah blah blah.
Morning Mood: Whatever.
Stay the course. slow and steady. blah blah blah.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Day 31: 20 Pounds Down!
Morning Weight: 166.0
Morning Mood: It's about time!
I really wanted to hit this mark by Monday, but it seems like these milestones (10, 15 and 20) have taken forever. I just inch up to them. Anyway, I'm feeling good except being down 20 pounds just makes me realize how much I really have to lose. I need to get at least 15 more pounds off, but maybe 20. I am hoping to get 5 more out of this round (7 more days!)
Morning Mood: It's about time!
I really wanted to hit this mark by Monday, but it seems like these milestones (10, 15 and 20) have taken forever. I just inch up to them. Anyway, I'm feeling good except being down 20 pounds just makes me realize how much I really have to lose. I need to get at least 15 more pounds off, but maybe 20. I am hoping to get 5 more out of this round (7 more days!)
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Day 30: Wow, Day 30?
Morning Weight: 166.4
Morning Mood: Ah, Man!
Even when it's only .4, I can't count being down 20 pounds yet. Still, I can't believe I've been starving myself for 30 days and I'm somewhat perky about it. I'm on the homestretch now and I'll post some before and after pics tonight when someone can take a pic for me. I'm feeling a lot better. I think I'll have another 10 pounds to lose when I'm done, but I'll take it slowly and make sure I stabalize the loss I have acheived. And I am buying a sweet pair of jeans when this thing is done!
Morning Mood: Ah, Man!
Even when it's only .4, I can't count being down 20 pounds yet. Still, I can't believe I've been starving myself for 30 days and I'm somewhat perky about it. I'm on the homestretch now and I'll post some before and after pics tonight when someone can take a pic for me. I'm feeling a lot better. I think I'll have another 10 pounds to lose when I'm done, but I'll take it slowly and make sure I stabalize the loss I have acheived. And I am buying a sweet pair of jeans when this thing is done!
Day 29: The Sun is Shining
Morning Weight: 166.4
Morning Mood: "Do a little dance, Make a little love. Get Down tonight. Woo! Get down tonight!"
You know that song? Uh huh-- I was dancin. I really wanted to be down 20 pounds by Monday, but I'm .4 away and so I should be there tomorrow. These are the days that make it all worth it.
Morning Mood: "Do a little dance, Make a little love. Get Down tonight. Woo! Get down tonight!"
You know that song? Uh huh-- I was dancin. I really wanted to be down 20 pounds by Monday, but I'm .4 away and so I should be there tomorrow. These are the days that make it all worth it.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Day 28: Mediocre Losses
Morning Weight: 167.8
Morning Mood: A little defeated.
I know over-all I've made great progress, but I am not going to reach my goal of 30 pounds. I knew it was a lofty goal, but I thought if I never once cheated and did everything exactly right, I would get close. I think at this point I'll be lucky to get to 25. At least, that's my new goal. My total loss today is 18.2 and I have about 9 days left I think. The thing is-- I still haven't gotten over my period. It's been 2 weeks and I have no idea how it's affecting my weight loss or my hormones. I really should research that.
Morning Mood: A little defeated.
I know over-all I've made great progress, but I am not going to reach my goal of 30 pounds. I knew it was a lofty goal, but I thought if I never once cheated and did everything exactly right, I would get close. I think at this point I'll be lucky to get to 25. At least, that's my new goal. My total loss today is 18.2 and I have about 9 days left I think. The thing is-- I still haven't gotten over my period. It's been 2 weeks and I have no idea how it's affecting my weight loss or my hormones. I really should research that.
Day 27: Okay...
Morning Weight: 168.2
Morning Mood: Disappointed.
You know, it wasn't easy being out of town and everyone else eating out and I'm eating cold chicken out of a cooler. It wasn't easy, but I was really hoping it would be worth it. I only lost 1.6. I can't decide if I should really complain or if I should take what I get and keep plugging along.
Morning Mood: Disappointed.
You know, it wasn't easy being out of town and everyone else eating out and I'm eating cold chicken out of a cooler. It wasn't easy, but I was really hoping it would be worth it. I only lost 1.6. I can't decide if I should really complain or if I should take what I get and keep plugging along.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Day 24: Same
Morning Weight: 169.8
Morning Mood: Aw, Man...
Well, I stayed the same, but here's the catch: I'm going to out of town for the weekend. I am not bringing the scale, so I'll report my total weight loss on Sunday. :)
Morning Mood: Aw, Man...
Well, I stayed the same, but here's the catch: I'm going to out of town for the weekend. I am not bringing the scale, so I'll report my total weight loss on Sunday. :)
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Day 23: Moving right along!
Morning Weight: 169.8
Morning Mood: PUMPED!
I am way excited to be down in the 160's, even if it's just by a hair! Last time I felt pretty good about myself, I'm guessing I was right around 165. (see pics in the brown shirt). I still have a ways to go--I don't feel like I'm looking quite that good yet, but I can sense that it's close. Even then, I really wanted to get down another 10 pounds. I'm on my way. I'm really hoping that by Monday, I can get to 165. To top if off, I went to the Buckle today in the mall and I actually had a good time trying on jeans!! I loved 2 or three styles and I didn't feel angry or disgusted at all. I can't wait to go back in a couple weeks, get an even smaller size and love it!!!
Morning Mood: PUMPED!
I am way excited to be down in the 160's, even if it's just by a hair! Last time I felt pretty good about myself, I'm guessing I was right around 165. (see pics in the brown shirt). I still have a ways to go--I don't feel like I'm looking quite that good yet, but I can sense that it's close. Even then, I really wanted to get down another 10 pounds. I'm on my way. I'm really hoping that by Monday, I can get to 165. To top if off, I went to the Buckle today in the mall and I actually had a good time trying on jeans!! I loved 2 or three styles and I didn't feel angry or disgusted at all. I can't wait to go back in a couple weeks, get an even smaller size and love it!!!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Day 22: Encouraged
Morning Weight: 171.4
Morning Mood: Relieved.
I think the progesterone is kicking in and my period will stop today. And .8 pounds is a solid loss--I just have to make up for some of these really bad days. You know, I need to research about chewing gums and mints to see if that might be halting my progress too. I'll check back on that. Today's new adventure? Tilapia. All I've had so far is chicken and I'm ready to branch out. I'm not much of a fish person, but I'm going to give this a try. See you tomorrow.
Morning Mood: Relieved.
I think the progesterone is kicking in and my period will stop today. And .8 pounds is a solid loss--I just have to make up for some of these really bad days. You know, I need to research about chewing gums and mints to see if that might be halting my progress too. I'll check back on that. Today's new adventure? Tilapia. All I've had so far is chicken and I'm ready to branch out. I'm not much of a fish person, but I'm going to give this a try. See you tomorrow.
Monday, July 20, 2009
Day 21: No Sacrifice, No Victory.
Morning Weight: 172.2
Morning Mood: Blah blah blah...
In the beginning I was really excited to get up and weigh, but the excitement has definitely worn off. I had way faster progress in the first half of the diet. I am slowing down. I am really hoping that once my period is over ( I am taking some progesterone to make it stop) that I will start having some bigger losses. On the other hand, I have tried to step back this morning and appreciate the progress I have made over-all. In 21 days I have lost almost 14 pounds. I am noticeably thinner through my midsection and my efforts are being rewarded. There is absolutely no reason to complain about that. So, I will stay the course.
Morning Mood: Blah blah blah...
In the beginning I was really excited to get up and weigh, but the excitement has definitely worn off. I had way faster progress in the first half of the diet. I am slowing down. I am really hoping that once my period is over ( I am taking some progesterone to make it stop) that I will start having some bigger losses. On the other hand, I have tried to step back this morning and appreciate the progress I have made over-all. In 21 days I have lost almost 14 pounds. I am noticeably thinner through my midsection and my efforts are being rewarded. There is absolutely no reason to complain about that. So, I will stay the course.
Day 20: Fine.
Morning Weight: 172.6
Morning Mood: A little less pissed.
I feel like I just lost 2 days. I recovered from my gain, but I'm kinda greedy. I want more.
Morning Mood: A little less pissed.
I feel like I just lost 2 days. I recovered from my gain, but I'm kinda greedy. I want more.
Day 19: WHATEVER!
Morning Weight: 173.2
Morning Mood: Pretty pissed.
I did nothing wrong. Nothing. I have not cheated even a little. It's like a slap in the face. I can't help but wonder if my period is really messing with my progress. So frustrating.
Morning Mood: Pretty pissed.
I did nothing wrong. Nothing. I have not cheated even a little. It's like a slap in the face. I can't help but wonder if my period is really messing with my progress. So frustrating.
Day 17: I'll Take It
Morning Weight: 173.6
Morning Mood: Satisfied.
I can't complain about .8 pounds, but what happened to 1.6!?
Morning Mood: Satisfied.
I can't complain about .8 pounds, but what happened to 1.6!?
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Day 15: Time for some math...
Morning Weight: 174.6
Morning Mood: Positive
Okay, it's time for some math. I've started a period which throws this whole thing upside down to some extent. I was not planning on having a cycle. I have Policystic Ovarian Syndrome and rarely have a period. When I do, they tend to last a long time (we're talking as long as 30 days). So, I'm off the cream until Friday, but if I do not stop bleeding I will take a progesterone supplement to stop it and continue HCG on Friday. I have 18 doses left. So, I will be finished with the cream on Monday, August 3 and continue the low calorie diet until Thursday the 6th. So, that will be a total of 38 days on the diet, 36 on VLCD with 23 remaining.
My total weight loss is 11.4 pounds. I have averaged .76 pounds lost per day. If I continue this rate I will loose 27.3 pounds and weigh 158.7. My goal weight is 150, so I'll have to do another round in October to get it all off. I really really hope by some miracle I can get to the 30 pounds mark this time around, but we'll see. I'll stay strong and hopefully I'll be rewarded.
I'll post some pics tomorrow. :)
Morning Mood: Positive
Okay, it's time for some math. I've started a period which throws this whole thing upside down to some extent. I was not planning on having a cycle. I have Policystic Ovarian Syndrome and rarely have a period. When I do, they tend to last a long time (we're talking as long as 30 days). So, I'm off the cream until Friday, but if I do not stop bleeding I will take a progesterone supplement to stop it and continue HCG on Friday. I have 18 doses left. So, I will be finished with the cream on Monday, August 3 and continue the low calorie diet until Thursday the 6th. So, that will be a total of 38 days on the diet, 36 on VLCD with 23 remaining.
My total weight loss is 11.4 pounds. I have averaged .76 pounds lost per day. If I continue this rate I will loose 27.3 pounds and weigh 158.7. My goal weight is 150, so I'll have to do another round in October to get it all off. I really really hope by some miracle I can get to the 30 pounds mark this time around, but we'll see. I'll stay strong and hopefully I'll be rewarded.
I'll post some pics tomorrow. :)
Day 14: More water...
Morning Weight: 175.6
Morning Mood: Neutral
I went to check in with the doctor this morning. I reported that I was down 10.4 pounds and he was very positive. He says I am well ahead of schedule for most women. That's good. He gave me a b-12 shot for a boost of vitamins and sent me on my way. I know I am lacking in water in-take. I am not having to use the bathroom nearly as much as I was in the beginning and my throat is dry all the time. I need to really push the water. I'm sure it'll help to flush my system even further. So that's my goal for the next couple of days: MORE WATER.
Morning Mood: Neutral
I went to check in with the doctor this morning. I reported that I was down 10.4 pounds and he was very positive. He says I am well ahead of schedule for most women. That's good. He gave me a b-12 shot for a boost of vitamins and sent me on my way. I know I am lacking in water in-take. I am not having to use the bathroom nearly as much as I was in the beginning and my throat is dry all the time. I need to really push the water. I'm sure it'll help to flush my system even further. So that's my goal for the next couple of days: MORE WATER.
Day 13: Finally
Morning Weight: 176.0
Morning Mood: Relieved
I was really anxious for this 10 pound mark. In fact, I got up and weighed and I was 176.2 and outraged because I really wanted to get there, So I weighed again in an hour and it was 176. So, I fudged a little, but I knew I was going to be there. I tried on a dress that's been hanging in the closet waiting for my thin self to wear it, but it's still a little snug. It'll probably take another 5-10 pounds to really get into it. But it's a size 10 and I'm getting closer.
Morning Mood: Relieved
I was really anxious for this 10 pound mark. In fact, I got up and weighed and I was 176.2 and outraged because I really wanted to get there, So I weighed again in an hour and it was 176. So, I fudged a little, but I knew I was going to be there. I tried on a dress that's been hanging in the closet waiting for my thin self to wear it, but it's still a little snug. It'll probably take another 5-10 pounds to really get into it. But it's a size 10 and I'm getting closer.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Day 12: SO close...
Morning Weight: 176.4
Morning Mood: Let down.
I was really geared up to be officially down 10 pounds, but I'm sure I'll be there tomorrow. I had a dream last night that I absentmindedly had a half of a chocolate chip cookie and I was so shocked and upset with myself. But, here I am awake and fully conscience of every bite. I can't afford one little bite.
Morning Mood: Let down.
I was really geared up to be officially down 10 pounds, but I'm sure I'll be there tomorrow. I had a dream last night that I absentmindedly had a half of a chocolate chip cookie and I was so shocked and upset with myself. But, here I am awake and fully conscience of every bite. I can't afford one little bite.
Day 11: Wahoo!
Morning Weight: 176.8
Morning Mood: WAHOO!!!!
What else is there to say? I'm so close to the ten pound mark I can feel it!
Morning Mood: WAHOO!!!!
What else is there to say? I'm so close to the ten pound mark I can feel it!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Day 10: What?! Already?
Morning Weight: 178.4
Morning Mood: eh.
Okay, I realize it's not totally fair to be a little bummed about this weight loss, but I've had steady big losses, so I don't love .4 pounds. Still, I'm down a total of 7.6 pounds (8.6 if you count the pound I gained loading.) I am starting to feel like my clothes are fitting a little looser and the bulk around my midsection is starting to diminish. I really can't wait to get to 10 pounds that will be an exciting mark. I hope by day 14 I'll be there. I should be. Slow and steady wins the race. :)
Morning Mood: eh.
Okay, I realize it's not totally fair to be a little bummed about this weight loss, but I've had steady big losses, so I don't love .4 pounds. Still, I'm down a total of 7.6 pounds (8.6 if you count the pound I gained loading.) I am starting to feel like my clothes are fitting a little looser and the bulk around my midsection is starting to diminish. I really can't wait to get to 10 pounds that will be an exciting mark. I hope by day 14 I'll be there. I should be. Slow and steady wins the race. :)
Day 9: Little by little...
Morning Weight: 178.8
Morning Mood: Satisfied.
Had an orange today instead of an apple. Wow, it was like heaven.
Morning Mood: Satisfied.
Had an orange today instead of an apple. Wow, it was like heaven.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Day 8: Plugging along
Morning Weight: 179.2
Morning Mood: Smug
Ha!! Love this. I'm down another 1.6 pounds and I feel really good. Today I've skipped both servings of melba toast and one serving of fruit. And I'm truly not hungry. Amazing. I can't wait to weigh tomorrow. See you then.
Morning Mood: Smug
Ha!! Love this. I'm down another 1.6 pounds and I feel really good. Today I've skipped both servings of melba toast and one serving of fruit. And I'm truly not hungry. Amazing. I can't wait to weigh tomorrow. See you then.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Day 6: I am in charge.
Morning Weight: 181.2
Morning Mood: Apprehensive
Nighttime Mood: Strong.
I'm pretty sure that since I got through the last 2 days, I'll have no problem with the rest. Yesterday was a barbecue with my family and today was a Larsen dinner at our house. I cooked some really yummy stuff and the fam brought some really yummy stuff and I resisted all. (Okay, I did have the most minute taste, literally a lick, of raspberry mousse). I ate my little meals and I survived it. No cookies. No birthday cake. No excuses.
My sister-in-law asked me if I felt deprived. That is an interesting question. Physically? No. I'm fine physically. I do feel hunger pangs and I do feel a little headachy at times, but those are the feelings of loosing weight. I remember the first time I fought this fight and I actually learned to like the feeling of hunger because I knew that I was in charge of that feeling. I knew I could overcome it without food and it began to feel like victory. That feeling means I am winning. It means I am loosing weight. But back to the question? My reaction was to say "I"m not deprived physically, but I do feel a little deprived emotionally." This reaction is really the core of the problem. Since when does a cheap slice of store-bought birthday cake equal emotional fulfilment? That piece of cake should have nothing to do with the emotional connection and satisfaction I feel when I'm around my friends and family. I realized today that I say yes to that birthday cake out of habit and obligation and pressure. I hate store-bought raspberry filled birthday cake. Hate it. I love homemade or from the expensive bakery cake with real ingredients from scratch. I am going to promise myself here and now that I will never settle for calories that I hate. They are not worth it.
In the future, when I am maintaining my leaner figure, I need to have staunch plans for the way I will handle myself on days like today. For example, the pork didn't look great to me. I've never been much of a pork person, so I'll skip it. Mark said the watermelon was the best he'd had all season, so I'll definitely have a couple slices of that. Mayonnaisy macaroni salad? Nope. Not even worth my time. Chinese chicken salad? I love it. I could probably live on it. Next time I make it I'm going to try it with Splenda, but if I don't really love it, then I'll go with the original and I'll have as much as still tastes good. And not anymore than that. I probably would try the raspberry mousee filled chocolate cookies and stop myself at one. Load up on the veggie tray. Try the apple dip and then back off. And then enjoy the comapny and the beautiful weather and the cute kids running around. Oh, and enjoy the awesome clothes on the body I'm taking really good care of.
I feel like I'm finally in charge. I have spent the past 2 years being out of touch with my body and how it feels. No more. If I conquered these last few days, there is no turning back. I can see the finish and I'm going to make it.
Morning Mood: Apprehensive
Nighttime Mood: Strong.
I'm pretty sure that since I got through the last 2 days, I'll have no problem with the rest. Yesterday was a barbecue with my family and today was a Larsen dinner at our house. I cooked some really yummy stuff and the fam brought some really yummy stuff and I resisted all. (Okay, I did have the most minute taste, literally a lick, of raspberry mousse). I ate my little meals and I survived it. No cookies. No birthday cake. No excuses.
My sister-in-law asked me if I felt deprived. That is an interesting question. Physically? No. I'm fine physically. I do feel hunger pangs and I do feel a little headachy at times, but those are the feelings of loosing weight. I remember the first time I fought this fight and I actually learned to like the feeling of hunger because I knew that I was in charge of that feeling. I knew I could overcome it without food and it began to feel like victory. That feeling means I am winning. It means I am loosing weight. But back to the question? My reaction was to say "I"m not deprived physically, but I do feel a little deprived emotionally." This reaction is really the core of the problem. Since when does a cheap slice of store-bought birthday cake equal emotional fulfilment? That piece of cake should have nothing to do with the emotional connection and satisfaction I feel when I'm around my friends and family. I realized today that I say yes to that birthday cake out of habit and obligation and pressure. I hate store-bought raspberry filled birthday cake. Hate it. I love homemade or from the expensive bakery cake with real ingredients from scratch. I am going to promise myself here and now that I will never settle for calories that I hate. They are not worth it.
In the future, when I am maintaining my leaner figure, I need to have staunch plans for the way I will handle myself on days like today. For example, the pork didn't look great to me. I've never been much of a pork person, so I'll skip it. Mark said the watermelon was the best he'd had all season, so I'll definitely have a couple slices of that. Mayonnaisy macaroni salad? Nope. Not even worth my time. Chinese chicken salad? I love it. I could probably live on it. Next time I make it I'm going to try it with Splenda, but if I don't really love it, then I'll go with the original and I'll have as much as still tastes good. And not anymore than that. I probably would try the raspberry mousee filled chocolate cookies and stop myself at one. Load up on the veggie tray. Try the apple dip and then back off. And then enjoy the comapny and the beautiful weather and the cute kids running around. Oh, and enjoy the awesome clothes on the body I'm taking really good care of.
I feel like I'm finally in charge. I have spent the past 2 years being out of touch with my body and how it feels. No more. If I conquered these last few days, there is no turning back. I can see the finish and I'm going to make it.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Day 5: Let Freedom Ring
Morning Weight: 182.6
Morning Mood: Still excited.
I'm not going to lie; today was challenging. It's the 4th of July. Fried Chicken. Baked Beans. Cole Slaw. Strawberries, watermelon and pineapple. BUT, I did not mess up. I did eat all of my strawberries in one sitting rather than splitting them up between meals, so we'll see if I do okay on my weight in the morning. I am proud to say that although it was challenging, I made the choice to be in charge of my food intake rather than allowing food to be in charge of me.
I'm so ready to be rid of this excess weight and feel great. I'm so ready to be excited to see old friends and not feel like all they see is how much weight I've gained. I'm so excited to NEVER have to lose the weight again. I'm not letting this happen again. I don't care if I end up with 7 more babies--I am not getting fat again.
Morning Mood: Still excited.
I'm not going to lie; today was challenging. It's the 4th of July. Fried Chicken. Baked Beans. Cole Slaw. Strawberries, watermelon and pineapple. BUT, I did not mess up. I did eat all of my strawberries in one sitting rather than splitting them up between meals, so we'll see if I do okay on my weight in the morning. I am proud to say that although it was challenging, I made the choice to be in charge of my food intake rather than allowing food to be in charge of me.
I'm so ready to be rid of this excess weight and feel great. I'm so ready to be excited to see old friends and not feel like all they see is how much weight I've gained. I'm so excited to NEVER have to lose the weight again. I'm not letting this happen again. I don't care if I end up with 7 more babies--I am not getting fat again.
Day 4: Swweeeeet.
Morning Weight: 184.2
Morning Mood: Pretty stinking good.
Okay, so, losing 2 pounds overnight is motivation enough for me. I've decided to eat my second fruit later in the evening before bed. It gives my dinner a chance to satisfy me and then I can have a little treat. I do get hungry between meals, but the amount of food does satisfy my hunger. In fact, I went to bed last night pretty full after I had my apple. So far, so good. Let's just get rid of all this weight. I'm pretty excited!
Morning Mood: Pretty stinking good.
Okay, so, losing 2 pounds overnight is motivation enough for me. I've decided to eat my second fruit later in the evening before bed. It gives my dinner a chance to satisfy me and then I can have a little treat. I do get hungry between meals, but the amount of food does satisfy my hunger. In fact, I went to bed last night pretty full after I had my apple. So far, so good. Let's just get rid of all this weight. I'm pretty excited!
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Day 3: Okay, I thought I wasn't supposed to be hungry...
Morning weight: 186.2
Morning Mood: Optimistic
Afternoon Mood: Dragging...
Today was interesting: the gloves are gonna be hard to get used to. Wal-Mart is out of Melba Toast, original, but there was some roasted garlic variety. I'm thinking it's fine, but I need to do some research. Took the kids swimming--wore gloves to put their sunscreen on, but I couldn't wear any, so I'm burned. Was I hungry? Interesting question. I felt headachy and somewhat lightheaded and my stomach was empty, but at the same time, I can't say I was hungry. I need to push more and more water....
But I am tired and I'm going to bed. I"m really excited to weigh in the morning.
Morning Mood: Optimistic
Afternoon Mood: Dragging...
Today was interesting: the gloves are gonna be hard to get used to. Wal-Mart is out of Melba Toast, original, but there was some roasted garlic variety. I'm thinking it's fine, but I need to do some research. Took the kids swimming--wore gloves to put their sunscreen on, but I couldn't wear any, so I'm burned. Was I hungry? Interesting question. I felt headachy and somewhat lightheaded and my stomach was empty, but at the same time, I can't say I was hungry. I need to push more and more water....
But I am tired and I'm going to bed. I"m really excited to weigh in the morning.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Day 2: Loading
Morning Weight: 187
Morning Mood: Less than happy
Okay, this loading thing isn't fun. I was mentally prepared to begin the diet and loading feels anti-climatic. It's more of a let down than it is free reign to eat what I want. I'll need to refer back to this post when I'm on maintenance because eating this way does not make my body happy. I feel over indulged. I feel guilty. I feel lethargic. But, I will continue to load today and then tomorrow, I'll be more than ready to start the VLCD (very low calorie diet). And I'll wait until tomorrow night to post a video about my first day!
Morning Mood: Less than happy
Okay, this loading thing isn't fun. I was mentally prepared to begin the diet and loading feels anti-climatic. It's more of a let down than it is free reign to eat what I want. I'll need to refer back to this post when I'm on maintenance because eating this way does not make my body happy. I feel over indulged. I feel guilty. I feel lethargic. But, I will continue to load today and then tomorrow, I'll be more than ready to start the VLCD (very low calorie diet). And I'll wait until tomorrow night to post a video about my first day!
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Day1: Again. Oops.
Day 1 Weight: 186 (i.e. fat fat fatty)
Okay, so I already made a mistake. I was loading yesterday without applying the cream. So, here I am again on day 1, loading with the cream. One thing I would love to discuss with someone is all the haircare and cosmetics issues. I went without foundation and conditioner today. Not loving it. I'm going to do some research and post what I find. In the meantime, any comments are appreciated.
Okay, so I already made a mistake. I was loading yesterday without applying the cream. So, here I am again on day 1, loading with the cream. One thing I would love to discuss with someone is all the haircare and cosmetics issues. I went without foundation and conditioner today. Not loving it. I'm going to do some research and post what I find. In the meantime, any comments are appreciated.
Monday, June 29, 2009
Day 1: Loading
And so the adventure begins. I went to see the doctor this morning--got the cream and I'm on my way to a smaller me. I want to invite anyone who is considering HCG or who is already involved to join me in this journey. There are a few promises I can make you--I promise to be totally honest and open about how I feel each day on the diet. I have considered this commitment for several weeks and I am going to give it everything I've got. That is what you can count on.
I will weigh for the first time tomorrow and I'll continue to load and report back. I've posted some pics to let you know why I'm doing this. I think they speak for themselves, but I can't help commenting...
So, this sweet baby and his 2 big brothers deserve a hot mama! She's in there somewhere.
Okay--Here's the thing--I was camping a few days ago and I wanted to check my hair, so I took a pic. Yeah--forget about the hair--Let's deal with the chins!!!See you tomorrow!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Just wait...It's gonna be awesome!
So, My first appointment to start the HCG diet is on Monday. One week from today. I promise honest and real photos--it'll keep me motivated and you informed. Wish me luck. :)
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